What Autism Feels Like (At Least For me)

Like you’re an alien.

Like the lights are too bright.

Like the sirens are too loud.

Like the shirt is too scratchy.

Like you’re in a play where everyone else has the script but you don’t.

Like people are telling you things with their eyes, but you can’t quite figure out what it is.

Like people imposing limitations on what you can do, and you having to fight for these limitations to be lifted.

Like you’re a failure for not having a superpower, being a savant, a maths whizz.

Like being fabulously obsessed, with music, art, film, whatever.

Like forgetting faces but remembering names.

Like  depression.

Like you’re alone.

3 thoughts on “What Autism Feels Like (At Least For me)”

  1. Growing up, I always thought something was a little *off* about me. I always felt different from the people around me. Now that I’m an adult, I have a whole list of things that are off: Tourette, OCD, prosopagnosia (inability to recognize faces), anxiety, propensity towards alcohol abuse, etc. A few years ago I started reading autism blogs. The writers seemed so much like me. I suddenly realized that I share many traits as those with autism. Does this mean I have it? Not sure, and at this late stage, I don’t think it really matters, but learning coping strategies for my areas of deficiency is still important. Next month, my son (13) is going to an all day screening to determine if he has autism. I’m not sure what is to be benefited by a diagnosis, but we’re assured by his psychiatrist that it will be helpful. My wife an I have already switched our way of thinking, realizing that the disruption he can cause at times is unintentional, and he should be treated with empathy rather than punishment. Keep blogging. There are undoubtedly many people out there who will see something in themselves by reading your blog.

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