What Makes Me Tic and What Makes Me Tick?


In no particular order, the following is what makes me tic:

  1. Squeamishness
    I had to have a blood test the other week, and my tics were out of control. As soon as the nurse made to take my blood, I pushed him away and shouted. Eventually, another nurse had to pin me down because I couldn’t stop squirming, and during the entire appointment, I let out my entire repertoire of vocal tics. I got the impression the other patients in the room were laughing at me, as were some of the staff – who actually asked me who had brought me there, in a way that made it sound as though they were asking who my carer was. All in all, it wasn’t a pleasant blood test. Although, I’m not too sure there’s such a thing as a pleasant blood test.
  2. OCD
    Intrusive thoughts (unwanted vivid, visual thoughts that plague the OCD mind) often trigger a bout of tics in me, but so do my checking rituals. Before I leave the house, I have to check everything is switched off/locked/unplugged/shut several times. During these times, I am ticcing like a clock.
  3. Loud noises.
    I might imitate the loud noise, say “ow”, or a rather childish “uh oh”.
  4. Total silence.
    If someone says something akin to “everyone, be totally quiet” I will be sure to make as much noise as is humanly possible. Equally, if I walking past someone’s bedroom in which I know them to be sleeping, I will again be sure to make as much noise as is humanly possible.
  5. Inebriation.
    I still drink though.
  6. Fatigue.
    I still stay up though.
  7. Someone bumping into me.
    If this happens, I will normally shout “hey” or tell them to fuck off. It’s awkward.
  8. Relaxing.
    When I am unwinding after work, it feels like I’m letting out all the tics I have been saving up throughout the day.
  9. Stress/anxiety.
    The other day, I had an on-the-spot test at work in front of the manager of my manager. Naturally, I called him a dickhead, but happily, he didn’t care, and I passed.
  10. Literally anything.
    With echolalia and echopraxia, I can feel the urge to imitate anything you say or do. For instance, if I walk past a smoker, and their lips make an ‘o’ shape as they exhale, I will often have to make the same shape.

    In no particular order, the following is what makes me tick:

  11. Coffee. 
  12. Music. 
  13. Reading articles which blow my mind and expose me to ideas I have never come across before.
  14. Writing (blogs, articles, letters, stories, anything).
  15. Long walks through the city.
  16. Long conversations with friends.
  17. A damn good short story.
  18. A damn good IPA. 
  19. Bookshops in which it feels like time stops. 
  20. Discovering a new author whose work I love. 

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